sadness
High Like Angels
She’s gotten sick
From being soberly intoxicated
I brush the hair tangles
From her face
I’m so happy
She moans
Her breath reeks of alcohol
Mine does too
The trees spin around us
Sweat on our necks
Her shoes are off
She said the filth felt good
Beneath her feet
Smothered in dust
From the gravel
Vomit between them
Tequila on the rocks
It’s gotten dark enough
To where we can count stars
And they look closer now
Than they ever have before
We don’t have wings
But the liqueur makes us empty enough
To float like we do
I can’t explain how this emptiness
Makes us feel stronger
It just does
Because even though it’s cold
We are warm
My friend and I
She throws up again
And it gets real silent
Standing there
Swaying on the gravel
The wind quiets down
The birds go still
I’m so happy
She says again
A whisper this time
I step towards her
The rocks below crunch
My arms go around her shoulders
I know
I say
I get it
Aftershock
He checked himself in
On the corner of
Denial & devastation
To the heart break hotel
3 days ago
Because he can’t get
His thoughts in chronological order
He’s been having a hard time
Keeping his head up straight
Too weighed down with hoarded memories
Scattered emotions
Scrambled like silly string
He can’t move on until he cleans up the mess
Lodged in like mold
So he’s been pouring his heart out
Like dirty bath water
Taking drives down winding back roads
To help with the asphyxiation of heartbreak
But the seat next to him screams with emptiness
Her warm body
A phantom
Was it ever real?
It tugs at him
Pulling the knot inside tighter and tighter
With each phone call
Buzzing
Begging him to pick up
His heart drops further and further
Down into oblivion
Because he wants to
Be mad
He should be
Mad at her
But he can’t
He just wants to answer
To push it under the rug
To forgive
But he’d never be able to untangle the mess
And she needs to know
That it’s not okay
She can’t mess up someone like this
And go on like it can all be forgotten
She needs to fucking know
That this feeling can’t ever be forgotten