desire
Sincerely Yours
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Maybe even love
But I cannot have you
So I look the other way
Hoping that if I focus elsewhere
My heart can forget about you
Your intelligence
The way you move
The way my name sounds on those lips….
One will never be enough
And I know this about you
Yet every time we kiss
I begin to fantasize
Of the what ifs
That’s when I know I’m too weak ….
What if you dreamt of me
and woke up with a longing…
What if you spoke of me
often, missing me as you did so….
What if you too
felt a connection in our lust filled nights….
But, I’m just a pawn
Used at your whim
And I let it all happen
Because I love
So much
Knowing that to you I can never be more
Than what I already am….
I’ve made you want me
So I’ve given myself
hoping that would gain your love
But it hasn’t
and that hurts….
Sometimes I wish we had never started
So I didn’t grow an attachment
Meeting you in the shadows of the unsuspecting nights
To mesh our bodies
Hoping it meant something
For not only me
That it wasn’t just for pleasure….
But it was
And maybe I should stop it
But I already said how weak
I am….
I thought I could handle the physical
without the love
People do it all the time
Don’t they?
But its getting hard to ignore my yearn for it
I’ve already given myself to you
because I love so much
and dream to be loved back….